Another Loss of someone we loved dearly

We lost a near and dear friend of our family Saturday night to cancer.  He fought long and hard and lost the battle, but we know he is no longer in any pain, and was called home.  Buster Milstead will be loved and missed dearly.  He Loved his family, his friends, and his hobby that he and my husband shared together for many years.  I knew him for 18 years, but my husband knew him for much much longer.  They worked on race cars together, and yes race them as well.  He had to approve of me before Michael married me, and was there the day that we said I do, he was also like a grandfather to my daughter who loved him dearly.  Buster we will always love and miss you, but know that your pain has ended and that you are where you should be now. I love you!!

Come to Jesus

The Healing Process

It's been a couple weeks now since I've lost my aunt, and I have to say that it has been so much harder to get over than I thought that it would be.  I miss her so much, but with the help and support of my wonderful family it has been made a lot easier.  A special thanks to my daughter's Heather and Leann, without you 2 I would still be in a really bad funk over this I love you so very much for always being there and knowing what I need.  A special thanks to my nieces Erica and Andrea, thank you as well for being there and helping me stand as strong as I can during this time, i love you both for all the call's and support you've shown me.

I'm going to be posting a song that was played at her funeral it is a song that gives me so much comfort and peace that I had to add it so enjoy it and think a little bit about it's meaning.

A very terrible time in my life

The past couple of weeks have been the most hard week's that I have had to go through in quite a long time.  I lost someone last week that meant the world to me, and honestly I don't know that it should have happened or not.  She went into the hospital a couple weeks ago for a very serious operation, but that's not what caused her to die.  Shortly after the operation which she was doing quite well after might I add something went wrong.  She somehow got a staff infection a very serious one, and as she was 82 and trying to recover from open heart surgery it just weakened her, and I lost her  This is my Aunt Joyce, someone who was full of life, love, and laughter.  She was a woman that was strong in her Faith in God, and never said a cross word to anyone, she was a very special person to me, she was like a mother to me.  I loved her dearly and will forever miss her. I can only take comfort in the fact that I know she is in a better place, and will always be in my heart.  I will always feel her around me and take comfort in knowing that she loved me unconditional and will alway's be looking down on me.


I love you Aunt Joyce and will miss you always!!

Why? Why? Why?

This has been a couple of very bad weeks here in the Tucker household.  I honestly don't know what's happened to cause such anger and other things to happen...  What I do know is that I really can't take much more of the thing's that are going on.  Every time we try it all just gets blown back in our faces and that hurts me and other's more than you could imagine.  It makes me want to just try anymore.  Therefore I as Why why why?!?  There so much more to be concerned about and the drama you get thrown at you isn't worth it.  Why on earth can't I just have a drama free life for heaven's sake.  If it's not this its that.  Have this person mad for this and that person mad for that.  I can't win for nothing and I sware it is driving me insane. I CAN'T DO IT ANYMORE!!!

Still dealing with a very sick girl

Well for a second there I thought that my daughter was getting better, but it seem's the fever popped back out of nowhere yet again. Today was not a good day for her.  It seems all she did was lay around and mostly watch television or mess on her cell phone.  She was just very quiet today, and that's when you know she's sick.  I am doing all that I can to get her well again, and trying to not catch it myself, but that seems to be the inevitable thought because being her mother I normally end up in the end getting whatever it is she has.  This time thought maybe I can stop it before it starts lol.  I have enough medicine around here to where if I have to I'll take some myself to stop it before it starts.  I'm hoping for a better day tomorrow, but it seems this one is going to be hard to predict on how long it lasts.  Well that's enough ranting for one night. Just keep hoping and praying that whatever this is goes away soon.

Having a sick teenager is the worse thing

Well today my daughter Leann woke up with a fever of 100.4 and I must say that it did have me a little out of sorts.  So I run to Walgreen's and I get a thermometer and some medicine for her to try to bring the fever down. We had it down for a couple of hours, but around 1 in the afternoon it spike to 102.8 that scared the begeebers out of me i must tell you I then had to go get my own med's at another pharmacy so I picked her up some Motrin while I was there to see if that would help. It worked every now and then, but the thing that really helped the most was naturally calling my mother and getting her advice she told me to put a cool rag on her head and her neck and let her eat on some crushed ice so I did that and it really started to come down then if she still has a fever in the morning I will be taking her to the doctor if I can get her in that is there has been so much going around that my doctor has been booked solid today and tomorrow the only thing I can do is to call at 7 am and see if I can get a work in appointment if it's needed at all if her fever has come down to normal in the morning and doesn't spike up again I may not have to take her, but I most likely will so I can get a doctor's note for he having to miss a couple of day's of school, but I'll make that call in the morning so that was my day today. I'll talk to you later. Til next time good night all.

When its bad its just bad

Well this week has been a fairly bad one for me.  I haven't felt good all week the weather has been OK but from the looks of today its on its way out again.  Pretty felt like one of those times when anything and everything you say is taken the wrong way.  Pretty much has made me feel like curling up in a ball and not coming out of my room which is in no way an option for me lol.  Being the mother of a teenager is trying and boy was it tried this week.  Attitude Attitude Attitude.  Well its what's to be expected I suppose.  I do remember that age and it was not one of my favorite times in life at all. Well that's all for now. Talk to ya later.

monday on wed you have got to be kidding me!!!!!!

So this morning was not my best I have to say.  Here's how it starts I get up after not wanting to...  I try to to get my 13 year old up which is no easy task let me just tell you lol.  Then I look on my couch to see if she has a uniform out and ready well heck no she don't so the hunt for the school uniform's begins.  I look in the dryer nope not there so I say damn...  I look in the baskets that I haven't gotten put up yet cuz I got behind due to our plumbing leak.  They aren't there either so now I'm in panic mode it's almost 7 I have to be out the door by 7:15 to get her to school on time, but no uniform.  What the heck am i supposed to do, I run around like a chicken with her head cut off is what I do lol.  I start to panic so naturally I call Michael and say where the hell (pardon the language here) are Leann's uniforms I cannot find them we're going to be late? Where are they low and behold they are in the one basket I didn't know about. The one in her room.  So I get her to school come home and put the clothes up, get a load in the washer they are now in the dryer, then shower in a bathroom with no floor just something that passes for wood lol.  OOOPPSSS got the wood a tiny bit wet cuz my hair is wet and I even put a towel down so I wouldn't do that.  So this is the tale of my feeling like a rooster caught in a hen house... Don't ya wish you were me???

DISASTER

Well the past two days have been a complete disaster here in the Tucker household.  Starts off Saturday night with a small leak in our bathroom so my husband fixes that on Sunday. Well Sunday night we had a huge leak under the house, and have no clue how long or when the leak started so that's going to mean a possible high bill.  We got it fixed we just now have to put the tile down in our bathroom and hopefully that will be the end of our huge DISASTER

this week

This week has been one crazy week!!! My daughter has been out of school all week, and doesn't go back until Tuesday.  Naturally it doesn't bother her in the slightest bit at all ppl.  She would stay home if we let her, but that won't happen in this life time lol.  Well other than that I can't think of that more too put other than this I am soooo happy to be talking to Heather and Andrea nearly if not everyday. My life is so much better having Andrea back in my life I missed her soo much, but she's back in my life, and going to stay there. I love your Andrea and Heather!!!!!

MercyMe - Bring The Rain

my first blog

well this is my first blog so i dont really know what to say other then welcome to my blog i will try to keep this going as much as i possibly can but being a wife for 14 years and and mother to a 13 year old daughter you may have to forgive me if i don't get to blog as much as i would like